Today felt like one of those days where you wake up and already want the day to end. I’m pretty sure that we have all had days like these. The thing is no matter how much I wanted to change my attitude towards this gloomy day, I still felt the ” omg I hate TODAY!!!” Feeling. As if something so horrific and embarrassing had happen that I wanted to hide my face for years.
days like these have no story, no music, no life. Days like these are simply a waste. And when we get days like these, I guess we should try our best to make the, well, the best of it. Hoping that there are no more days like today (which is like hoping for the bus to arrive on time) I wish all of you a good luck on dead days. Lol.
and even though you dont love me
somehow im opened to a brand new world
a world i clearly see.
a world that makes no sense to you but perfect sense to me.
a world where nothing hurts.
where i smile and my heart wont burst.
where stars smile at me and the moon sings songs just for me
where the sun enjoys a good laugh
a world where i properly get up and stand.
a world where you dont say no.
where you decide not to let go.
where you tell me im the one and who
wont let you fall.
but i open my eyes and youre not there
an empty room, an empty life
i ask everyone if this is fair.
i question whether you ever cared.
the reality of it all is that i cant have you.
and i dont understand why you?
I used to ask myself “did things change that much?” The answer would always be yes. Though not for me. For me time would always stay still and the old days of my life would be my present days as well. What I’m pretty much saying is that for me, well life has always been the same.
I know it sounds bad, well because it is bad. You see the people around you making all these decisions, all these great things that are happening to them, while you…you continue a routine that’s been happening for the past 5 years. (Talk about living on the edge)
The problem is I look back at the old days, where I didn’t have to worry about things like these. A time where we were all so innocent and nothing in the world mattered. Where bills and working and even kids were just made up stories, but those stories are very real.
I guess the best solution would be to let go. The old days are just that, old days. Taking the risk for the new would be the ultimate goal…right? People always have trouble letting go of the past. Its like a plug that runs their lives and if the plug is taken out, life wouldn’t exist anymore.
Listen, and I should pay attention to this as well. Life will always keep going, whether you spend your time in the old days or not, life keeps going. It won’t wait for you, it won’t remind you of anything, it won’t warn you. So why waste time looking at days that no longer exist. Why not look at days that can change your life. Days where you’ll be able to smile more. Days where love can come in and surprise you. Days where friendships can be created and have a chance at lasting a lifetime. The choice is up to you.
But hey don’t let me be the one that decides it all, I’m just passing a message about something that I…well used to experience. Hopefully you see the value of life and stop, living in the old days.
And no matter how crazy my day gets, a good sunset can take all my worries away. :)